So, I'm urgy. Like, totally. And the urge to just grab something sharp right now is immense. I just...want to bleed. Want the release. I don't even know why. I just...do. I want the familiarity I guess.
I just..ugh. I don't know. I just want to do it.
Being told "you can't" isn't helping me. Because it makes me want to do it more because I hate being told what to do because I always do as I'm told. I have to.
Ow. My mother just burnt me with a fucking spoon.
I want to give up.
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