A quick post.

We had a memorial assembly for our teacher today, Mr. Herman. RIP Mr. H.
He was awesome. Loud funny and he had no regard for the rules! But it's what made him awesome.
His funeral is Thursday and although no puils are attending as a school we've sent our best wishes to them. RIP Herminator.

Ughh.

I'm tired. Like physically exhausted. I just want to sleep. Or SI. Or both. I'm so heading back down the road of SI and it scares me quite a bit. I don't want to SI again and I don't want to start all over again and have to deal with the recovery stuff. I don't know. It's scary.
I just...want to feel the release but I don't want to SI.
Confusing much?

Woo.

I can finally post!
I spent the majority of the weekend doing chemistry coursework and I was working until nearly 2am yesterday!
So, I need to update with my alters.
Theo and Aeon have gone and I seem to have to werewolf..things. Sylva and Skye.
They're pretty cool and when I get home I'll do a write up on the main page. Yeah, Skye and Sook are like trying to kill each other constantly but Teeq and Sylva get on pretty well, they've spent a lot of time talking so far. One difference, Sylva dislikes children aka littles, and I have a lot of them so he's gunna have to like..get used to it tbh but you know.

I feel really mixed up lately, like totally confused. I don't know what I'm meant to be feeling. Like I feel that I should be okay but I'm not..and I'm not sure why.

I'm stressing over exams which is making me think back to previous coping mechs which isn't good.

Also, Happy Birthday Lit'lun ^.^

So my family suck arse.

They're driving me fucking insane. Smell and I were mucking about and she tried repeatedly to kick me in the face and that is just fine and peachy but when i try and defend myself by pushing her legs away I'm taking it too far. It's my fault. Cause if I get kicked in the face that's all peachy and fine. Fucking family. I fucking hate them all. All of them. I want out. Now.

Finally!

At last, Pandy's chat is back up and running <3 I was seriously dying without it.
My back is killing me and I have 3 or 4 vertebrae that are out of place and deep breaths or sudden movements mean I just about burst into tears. It hurts, a lot. No matter how I sit I'm in pain.
I'm tired, grouchy and all I want to do is sleep somewhere. I have work in the morning so I'm going to to be up and at-'em early.
I just..blergh. I getting fed up of doing this. I just...I don't even know what. I'm lkjdfvhdosijxnjcb. Basically.
I don't even know what to say.
Laters.

Rawr.

Heh, today was interesting. In drama, I ended up yelling at my class cause they weren't working and I was doing everything and it was pissing me off and I'm hormonal so I was like *explodes* and they were all D: but I hope I got the message across to them!
And now, I'm doing some Chem coursework, trying to get the majority of it done today so I don't have much to do over the actual weekend. I have equations and calculations and lord knows what else to find and do and analyise and evaluate and D: it sucks.
So yeaaaaaaaah, laters.

Ugh.

Feeling increasingly depressed.
Just have no get up and go.
Feel total lost.
Want to curl up somewhere.
Somewhere dark.
In a hole.
Or a box.
I can't actually deal with life right now.
Twitchy.
Scared.
Feel like I'm being watched.
Feel like I'm being touched.
Scaring me.
Don't like touch.
Fed up of people telling me I'm wrong.
Yelling.
Too loud.
Can't take it right now.