It turns out I have REALLY inappropriate responses to serious things...like bursting out laughing...

For example I'm watching "Sleeping with the enemy" which basically focuses on a lady whose husband used to abuse her. Altogether..not funny. And there is a scene where she is getting "intimate" w/ this dude and she tells him she can't and for some unknown reason I have cracked up laughing...like full blown hysteria laughing and I'm super not certain why! I mean.. I *know* it isn't funny like at all and couldn't control myself like at all.

I've had this reaction before...when something scares me or freaks me out I burst into completely inappropriate laughter. Like when my friend fell down the stairs I was literally crying I was laughing so hard. My sides currently hurt from my last gigglging episode.

It's annoying..idk why it happens but it does..so if I'm laughing when you tell me a serious thing, it's not personal! It's my bodies fucked up way of coping with life apparently!

Stress

I dunno why I'm so stressed. Bah.

Hormones

They suck ass. They're making me cry. Cause y'know..I'm just gunna blame them.

Holy bah.

I've not been sleeping particularly well lately at all.

It's impairing my judgement, though I think that's just an excuse for me to do stupid things.

Honesty.

I fail at it when I'm struggling. And guess what?

That's right, I'm struggling.

vfhcdj

Helping send a email tomorrow.
Tryna find a bridle in case mine doesn't come.

Stressing.

Trailerr

We had Zoh on the trailer today, freakin' scared much?! I was shaking like a leaf and I felt so nervous and terrified and absolutely shitting it it was unbelievable. I actually cried. Full blown hysterical crying. I was so scared of him getting hurt heh
He was really really good though :]

And he went out in his new fly rug, which he's scared of -.-'

Uhm, I re-watched the newest Harry Potter today, I like it, cept the bit where Bellatrix carves "mudblood" into Hermione's arm. That bit I don't like esp when I'm SI urgy. It triggered meeee.

Tomorrow is super busy..I have to put Ellie out, go to work, bring Ellie in, have a riding lesson, back to work, ride May, deal with Ellie/Zoh. Yay busy <3

Eh.

Eh..I'm tired. I don't even know what to say. But I figured that posting is the right thing to do. I'm stressed. Tired. Hungry. I'm trying to eat better. I say trying, but it's not going so well.
We have tadpoles.
Yeah..thats about it.