It turns out I have REALLY inappropriate responses to serious things...like bursting out laughing...

For example I'm watching "Sleeping with the enemy" which basically focuses on a lady whose husband used to abuse her. Altogether..not funny. And there is a scene where she is getting "intimate" w/ this dude and she tells him she can't and for some unknown reason I have cracked up laughing...like full blown hysteria laughing and I'm super not certain why! I mean.. I *know* it isn't funny like at all and couldn't control myself like at all.

I've had this reaction before...when something scares me or freaks me out I burst into completely inappropriate laughter. Like when my friend fell down the stairs I was literally crying I was laughing so hard. My sides currently hurt from my last gigglging episode.

It's annoying..idk why it happens but it does..so if I'm laughing when you tell me a serious thing, it's not personal! It's my bodies fucked up way of coping with life apparently!

Miiigraine.

Ugh. It hurts and bah.

And I'm totally procrastinating writing something I need to. Fail.

Not sure.

I feel...uncertain.
I don't know why..but I do and it's unsettling.

Birthday

Today was mine. I turned 20 and it's made me think. I'm NOT a child anymore...I'm officially an adult.

Day-um, that makes me feel old. In TEN YEARS I'll be freakin' 30! D:

Ew.